The first day of the rest of my life

One of the simplest, essential and uncontrastable facts in everybody's life is that day by day each moment is based on decisions, small or big ones, tracing a route for our individual path in the quest for our objectives, and under the basis of our freedom of choice and the duties before mankind and our Creator.

On the other hand, human being -however not always with the same intensity- posses from the very moment that they make contact with the inner and outer reality, a strong wish -that in a certain way is inexplicable- to find the reason to exist, his role in life, and the hunger to approach to a superior being, urgency that under a sociologic or psychological point of view could have different explanations, but constitutes the proof that he contains a soul in his interior.

From my personal experience, I suspect that I can be called a "searcher", because from long time ago, and besides my personality or my former life experiences (or maybe because of it) I've been dedicating some important part of my thoughts, reflections and perception, to reach something more that the routine everyday issues, a hard to define -and perhaps easier to share- sensation that from the birth to the Masonic life, I could say not based solely in intuition but with a certainty similar to the knowing of good and evil, that I was searching for the truth, the light and the freedom. Three words that contains all the vital needs to be achieved by man during his existence, and taking into account his duties with himself, with God, and with the others.

It is amazed how the three above-mentioned words, commonly used and misused constitutes themselves desirable but hard to obtain goals, to the point that people that decides to start walking this road, finishes loosing the way.

The day I started as an Entered Apprenticed gave me the conscious that in the end and after a lot of walking, sometimes on the right direction sometimes going in circles, I finally have found the path that I was looking for, the one that leads me to an "awakening", to my grow as a human being, not only because my owe to be the best I can be, but to have the chance to become a useful instrument to my fellows, and in order to reach what is -I guess- a goal by itself beyond from time of space, the love and fraternity among the existences.

However as this inner sensation of peace (that is similar to the experience of watching the lighthouse announcing the proximity of a safe harbor, after riding on stormy waters) is not a sufficient reason of joy, the initiation to the Masonic life represents a feeling and then a knowledge that I've received the grace and privilege to travel this road in company of my brothers (knowing however that this is a intimate, close and personal experience not subject to transfer by any mean).

A couple of years ago in the early days of the Internet I read a fable of an orphan lion that was adopted by a flock of sheep. Living among this small society, he learned to act and think as one of this animals, until one particular day -because casualties of life, if you believe in it- when he saw right before his eyes an adult hungry lion that was looking after food for his family. In this very moment, he opened his eyes and took contact with his true nature. That is the way the initiation could be described, as the recognition of that different nature that one suspect deep inside to posses, but that never have the courage nor the light to accept to himself, but now in company of his peers can finally "admit".

February 03, 2003

Q:.H:. Miguel de Pomar